当初,我付出的爱实在的太唐突,太爱的盲目,
我给的错误爱情请不要继续不断修复不断弥补,
这又是为了何苦?
何不卸下情感包袱给与各自空间去寻找你我新的幸福,
我可以独自为你承受孤独,请别哭,
我不是不爱你只是为了保护你，我选择了放弃....
i understand i cannot be selfish anymore..i shouldnt let any more ppl suffer any more hurt.. i dun wan them to go through the same thing again.. no way.. even the two of them, i noe haven really totally forgotten the hurt i singled-handly gave to them..duno wad happen to them lately, by constantly rejecting my calls, u tink i dunoe u're trying to avoid me meh? But FOR FUCK?! wad the hell? r u trying to deliver bak the same hurt i caused u back then.. well then, u achieved that.. 我都可以独自为你承受孤独, wad's more do u still wan? in both cases, i admitted i made mistakes..but lyk wad zen said, some tym girls takes a very long tym to really put down a hurt.. but y FUCK is their character so FUCKED up? forgive n forget, let's move on, cant we..even normal frens? why both two somemore?! 难道你们真的要恨过才ok吗? den wad's the point of me keeping dis blog add? i still rmb the first link theloveof2j was to commemorate my first love, the one that gave me the best ever love n care in the whole world... when sure enough, when we break, i change the blog link to girlsaretroublesomeyetsupercute, cuz i was really upset over that tym, but when i rmb the cute n sometimes pretty silly stuff she will do to spice up my life just makes me wanna say girls r cute at the same time they r troublesome.. as for the current link, i forgot about the reason, but i tink it got to do with my second relationship being like a illusion, a short n sweet one where there's always a happy ending..but i was brought bak (or should i say i crashed back) to the real world by the harsh reality...it's real, not an illusion, n it ended just abruptly just like when u suddenly woke up from a dream.... mayb i blog again when i change the address one more tym when i.......

okie, unhappy stuffs aside, since so many ppl has blog about dis year being the last one n stuff, i just thought how bout dis, let's do a class review! haha.. sounds kinda of cool.. first on the list: Chu Yan..hm..wad can i say? first word on the mind : "monster"! not that she's scary though; she really is a nice girl. just that she's has a model 173 height makes the second highest in our class..(is it she that is extraordinary tall or is our class simply just short).. saw her at butter factory,has to admit; she's a stunning beauty that day.. and with heels, even more "scary"..hey chu yan, pls give me your height! haha...

Okie moving on, clive... haha..happy go lucky guy who loves clubbing the way i do... haha...next tym, let's do a graveyard and AK together, promise? got 眉眉can oso recommend..haha...

Okie next is yu bin.. hm... a quiet girl who never forget about fun when the need calls for it.. i noe, ppl tinks she's a mugger, well she's really not one..she's the type that if 跟你很熟的话，可以跟你聊得无边无际，不熟的则比较冷谈... kit says she's bossy during PW, dun really tink so though upon noeing her better.. hah..

Okie moving on, xuan qi.. this kind of girl,内心是温柔的，外壳是冷的，ie.外冷内热的女生..ppl say she's a 冰山, but seriouly i dun noe where this nick came over...虽不是热情的沙漠，但也不至于冷酷无情的冰山...she's really friendly and enjoyable to talk to and the type that 不怕自嘲的女生...ok, she look cool n devoid of emotion when she's get serious, (hey sometimes i really got "scared" by her) but hey, her smile is really beautiful n she really help me alot along the way... my chem without miss lee n her will have collapsed long ago... Miss heng, if my chem really did score well for As, i owe u a meal promise..

Moving on, jocelyn. my PW leader..lots to say, first: her leadership: i give her 100, cuz she managed to convince a nobody like me to work and push for my grades..initally i really thought pw is a stupid subject... and her efforts is worth 101 marks..if the rest of us gave 100 of our efforts, she'll will always be giving someting extra.. that's y she's our leader... good vision from mr loo..haha.. n she's the type that almost never fails to repy me instantly when i got urgent tings to ask..well unless her fone is out of batt...haha...

Next up Gou Gou aka coli..u wan call her cauli as in cauliflower oso can.. she''ll just Sin 9 (hokien for 撒娇)back to u.. yes, there's crtics of her, but ppl, she's really not that bad as u ppl make out.. just ask zai... haha... really... though till this day, i still cant understand y she loves going to C.C. to study..does it really help? mayb it work for her.. haha..

Moving on, charlene..really noe her since the first star kayak course..in school, didnt really spend a lot of tym toking to her...but she's the type of girl that can hang out with almost everyone.. becuz her charcter? may she consider all those she noes as her frens and so barriers are eliminated...

Jon lin, a really nice guy who help me alot too..hey afterall, he's smarter den me wad... n the type of guy whose girlfren will feel very lucky cuz he's the kind of guy hu will 疼他的女朋友..if only i were half as caring as him...sigh...

Li Lin..a sweet and innocent girl... once spread rumour about jason n her.. cuz of a sentnce she innocently said...really tells u about her character... haha.. wooks really hards as well in everything (studies, CCA,PW, play etc..) , if she's a player in FM (football manager), she's be the type that has workrate 20...

Yong kit, the best football player in our class without a doubt,, afterall, he even play with hariss harun b4.. how cool is tat...n he always do things with a big smile, this gave me the hope that life's simple and beautiful..life is filled with optimism and hope afterall! n seriously, the 200808 incident wasnt really intentional..

Moving on. Jie Ying ..the smartie in our class.. her academic acheivements is simply too much for me to say evrything here..n she's the selfless type hu never fails to share wad she noes with her frens.. n i tell, she really look gorgeous when i saw her butter fac.if not for clive caling out to her, i probably couldnt recognise her.. 女大十八变？haha...

Bao xian.. one of the three nomines for 酷妹of the class... play real good basketball, next tym teach me basketball will u? haha....her sportig character just make her fun to hang out with...

Serena, a huge contender to be considered as the 玉女of the class, although wy may have something to say about that.. she the type of girl that 散发出古典美，just like Apple from 黑girl (formerly known as 我爱黑涩会)..

Speaking of gu dian mei, mayb berlinda can be considered as well.. or is it becuz she is in gu zhen oso...that i tink both of them 散发古典美? tink it play a part though.. didnt really tok much to her.. cuz she in my impression seem like a quiet girl, mayb that becuz i'm not really very close to her.. haha...

Benjamin, one of the fun guys that just seem cool to hang out with.. movies, bowl, pool all's cool.. but BIG NO to Kbox n clubs.. one of the 乖乖牌男生in class... parent abit stricter i guess.. so unlike me.. 他的好才会显现出我的坏.. that it's true though.. no wonder i got a lousy impression for others..haha

Jason Ong, known him since sec 3..has been quarelling since the first day we known, guess that's our form of communicating medium.. help with alot too in printing stuffs..(just go ask him he sure go alot to say)..loves his frens more den his girlfren..(hey w8, he doesnt hav a girlfren yet..hey jason, jia you ah, Ur destined one is waiting for u) 若找到适合的，就放胆去追吧，别管自己身高了啦，not all girls care too much about height..只要不要像牵猩猩就好了..切记你是帅哥leh...and rmb when u strike toto, dun forget me hor...

Shu Wen, another huge favourite for 酷妹of the class... further strengthened my belief of that when i saw her at post prom.. 简直是帅呆了..and to tink 帅 isnt a vocab in my list used to describe a girl.. simply speak volume about her 帅ness...

Wen ting, spend only a year noeing her,,really short as all of us bz preparing our As lvl.. how i wish tym could turn back, allow me to noe her better..

Grace..from her name, can tell she's a graceful person..although clumsy at times.. another sweet looking girl.. 邻家女孩的称号或许最适合她... another one whom i didnt really got to understand better..regret regret...

Shu ming the last contender for 酷妹of the class... really has her own attitude... kinda of cool i will say.. especially dislike nathan haha..cuz in her post she thx all teachers but nathan... haha.. she's the type outspoken one n dun fear any consequences one... a real courageous one indeed.. 酷毙了! haha..

Wan Yin.. the 号称150的小女生...small in size, big in heart... an absolutely must to have in ur frens list..cuz she's the type that u can tease all day n she never gets angry..haha...

Gek Hui... stands for 菊花，and the way miss lee says her name simply wanna make me laugh... another small girl that has huge aspirations ie i wanna grown tall.. aiyo... haven u all heard one saying 高的女生美，矮的女生可爱吗？ 你看杨丞琳，可爱教主，也只不过才160 吗... haha...

Jasper... an good option to have when u're a pub fanatic like him... strictly no to clubs though cuz he dun like dancing.. abit like ben in this sense.. haha.. always help me out when i encounter problems.. call him the problem solver man...n seriously i still cant recall where i saw that girl in zinc b4.. so familar yet so stranger.. haha...

Last but not least, zainul..he's had a rough season this year.. being diagnosed with cancer..but his determination n courage to fight on really impresses me.. his courage to defeat the illness really aspires me n makes me believe with sheer determination, nothing is really impossible...lost some of his spark when's he down, but now's he's back healthy..the old fun to be zainul is back!

okie, all done and dusted.. this could well be my 告别作.....

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