没有"A" 的日子 第一天,where A is a random variable...haiz..todae initially wanted to go for econs..but something crop up last min..zz..how should i put it? i dun even noe if i should even wan tok about it..zz...it's something along this line..(just to link bak to last post) i noe which type of frens can be platonic frens foreva and which types i dun wan just be frens...egs of those that can be platonic frens ..omg..there is so many..such as the ex 4i ppl (nana, fish, gina, hy...), the 0722 ppl and many others...but there are some tat cant become platonic frens becuz of wad happen in the past..cuz it's just impossible to be platonic frens with ppl tat are ur former affection...most ppl noes the two most prominent ppl i once liked..(but actually it's three..haha..dun bother trying to find out hu she is;u guys dun noe her) aniwae i have no intentions to hide it oso.. of cuz there is a little regret over this la..this first one eh..only small regret la..but still, i super thxful to her..cuz at tat tym she was the first one tat made me realise the 心跳加速的感觉, made me realise xi huan yi ge ren de yi shi...though she rejected mi outflat... as for the 2nd one, it's filled with more regret..many months have pass since, to tink of it..i noe i was at fault..although i hated to admit this though..(guys will be guys ma..pain is temporary, pride is foreva) i thought i buried tat guilt feeling..but it kept resurfacing.. tat emotional scar on my cheek will always remain.. i'm realli afraid..afraid one day this will affect the next person which i dun wan just be fren de.. is it mi tat is too weak to let go of tis emotional burden or am i simply afraid to commit the same thing again? i realli cant provide the ans n i not gonna let chance (a coin toss) decide it for me.. cuz i dam scared..the next person may just be round the corner...n i'm afraid..there may be just no forgiveness in this world..

dreamed at 8:51 AM